Bad Day

Today I feel completely run down. I thought I would feel better today, but I have been feeling sick, and stressed. It's hard to put into words, and it's hard to understand exactly how i feel. I feel like I am on idle, just floating along, unable to push forward. Most of it is my own fault, but I just can't be okay here. I love where I grew up, but I just don't grow here. It's so stagnant. And I know this is a complaint that I am so lucky is the worst of my troubles. It could be so far worse. But still I feel trapped.